Anonymous said: Over these past few days my paranoia and dissociation really kicked in and I feel like I'm unable to recognise myself physically or otherwise and I'm not sure if I'm trans or not but I don't feel like the trans person I am now or the non-trans person I was before, I feel as if there is a new person coming or something. I've always had vastly different interests etc depending on which state I'm in. It's okay if you don't want to answer this but I was wondering if this could be DID?
Hey, Adam here.
Although what you’re going through may be stemming from dysphoria, derealization, or dissociation alone, it may be a dissociative disorder or DID.
As a system of mostly cis-gendered males, the dysphoria can sometimes lainch us into an internal debate about identity and whether or not there may be new alters emerging. We have not yet begun our journey with hormones and the like, but that is in our near future. I know, for instance, that Erik (currently in the process of changjng his name/the body’s name to Lyric) struggles with identity and feels fragmented when it comes to defining his gender.
A part of this may be your new self just trying to leave your old self behind so dissociating from that former “self” may be a coping mechanism. However, it may be a good idea to get a journal or blog primarily for observing and discovering other parts if they do exist. Asking simple questions may leave room for others to answer if they’re comfortable. Also roleplaying can be a good method for others to come forth.
As always we are always here if you need to talk or have any questions. If anyone else has anything to add that could be of use, please feel free to add. -A.W